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Sunday, April 03, 2005 ( @ 6:44 PM )
Perhaps i shouldnt elaborate but.... perhaps a little. Trusting, a confidence that you have in someone that they are honest and sincere and will not deliberately do anything that will hurt you in any way. ( defination from dictionary ) Dom says this problem will arise AGAIN in the future.. somehow deep within me, i knew yea probably it will however i cant do anything and wont do anything mean... coz i trust him, but it just felt like a burning hole in my heart whenever i think about it. *hurts (>_<) requested testimonal since last year but still.... didnt get any. Sometimes little actions speaks louder than words.. *sigh... or rather.. some promises are better left unsaid. Unexpectedly last min chilled out with sinyee n nor (the gang). Hey thanks guys.. im touched that you are concerned. I'll probably die with no regrets from knowing you two. Counted, nor slapped me 5 times and sinyee slapped me 1 time during our conversation at border's starbucks. Sinyee's slap was gentle but nor's... *ouch! (haha.. just kidding nor) but they did slap me.. coz they and i, think that i need some 'wake up' call coz of above's incident. Nor gave me harsh advices which i cant put myself to do it.. like there are alot of fishes in the sea , etc.. but if i have to, to make him happier with someone else... i'll rather let him go. I really dont believe in forcing.. that just isnt me. *seriously~ ( cross my heart ) Both of them shared some deep and profound feelings too.. but when questions were shot at me, i was loss of words.. mind was in a blank.. being 'lecture' by them. All of the sudden, Nor shared that back then in secondary days, when she knows me, she felt that im the type of person whom 'trying to act innocent', 'stuck-up', 'act cheerful' , etc... gee.. but now she find it different... coz she realised that i do act whom i am. sensitive though i look cheerful and always hides my worries behind all that smiley mask im wearing. *darn..she saw through me.. lol. *blush. most importantly i aint stuck-up!!!! During the conversation, the most serious phrase from Nor was 'we will wash our hands and sit back and watch if it's still like that the next time ' ok, gota admitt at that point of time i was stunned.. coz they are the most closest friends i have, if they aint gona help i think i'll probably just breakdown... sorry but that's my emotional side. Today loss totally lost appettite...*sigh.. and had chocolate rhumba (ice blended drink) as breakfast cum lunch cum dinner. At least it tasted better than yesterday's dinner which was blended banana mix mocha. Dont say i didnt warn ya but... it sux. one sip and u'll feel like puking. I've a new goal... which is to go to JAPAN! *yesh! after graduation.. which is like 3 years later~ but lst gota take up japanese classes. Bought stuffs, one of them is this pink dog here. Well, to cheer myself up i guess~ *weak smile  0 comments |